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POISON IVY PART II: THE ITCH
I told myself I wasn’t going to overthink it. It was just a message. Three words. “Hope you’re okay.” That’s all. Nothing romantic. Nothing emotional. Nothing that should’ve had the power to affect me the way it did. But it did. Because sometimes it’s not the message. It’s who sent it. I responded. Simple. Casual. Just enough to be polite. At least that’s what I told myself. The conversation lasted ten minutes. Then twenty. Then an hour. Before I knew it, we were talking the

Kay Felder
3 days ago7 min read


POISON IVY PART I: JUST CAN'T LET GO
I used to think heartbreak came from losing someone. Getting cheated on. Getting lied to. Getting betrayed. The older I got, the more I realized those situations weren’t always the hardest ones to recover from. Sometimes the hardest person to let go of is the one who never really did anything wrong. The one who treated you well. The one who cared about you. The one who wanted the best for you. The one you genuinely loved. The problem is that love doesn’t automatically mean tw

Kay Felder
Jun 85 min read


TRUE COLORS
Sometimes people don’t show you who they are when things are going bad. They show you who they are when things are going good. That’s the part nobody talks about. People always say money changes people. Success changes people. Fame changes people. Maybe. But sometimes money doesn’t change people at all. Sometimes it simply reveals them. Sometimes all success does is turn the lights on. And when the lights come on, everybody’s true colors become impossible to ignore. The first

Kay Felder
Jun 34 min read


To The Youth
TO THE YOUTH There is something powerful about being young. Not because you have everything figured out. Not because life is easy. Not because the world suddenly understands you. But because you still have time to become whoever you decide to be. That is the part people forget to tell you. The world will spend so much time trying to tell you who you are before you even get the chance to discover it for yourself. Some people will tell you to dream smaller. Some people will lau

Kay Felder
May 286 min read


PG1 - The Sophomore - Part II: The Leap
The game slowed down for Bobby, but his life did not. If anything, everything around him started moving faster. Practices felt faster. Decisions came faster. Expectations grew faster. Recognition spread faster. For the first time since arriving at PG University, people outside of campus were beginning to notice what was happening. At first, the attention came quietly. It lived in conversations between assistant coaches before games. It showed up in social media clips with cap

Kay Felder
May 189 min read


A MOTHER’S TOUCH
When I think about mothers… I don’t think about perfection. I think about moments. Little moments that somehow turned into the biggest memories of our lives. I think about waking up on a Saturday morning hearing music playing through the house before my eyes even opened. One of those old songs moms always know every single word to. The smell of breakfast floating through the hallway. Sunlight peeking through the curtains. The sound of dishes moving around in the kitchen. And

Kay Felder
May 125 min read


PG1: The Sophomore — Something More
The game did not slow down. Bobby did. But that did not happen overnight, and it definitely did not happen by accident. It came from frustration that never really left him. It came from moments during his freshman year where he walked off the court knowing he had more to give but did not always know how to give it. It came from possessions where he made the right read just a second too late, or where he saw something open but hesitated long enough for it to disappear. He coul

Kay Felder
May 47 min read


PG1: The Freshman — Part II: When It Counts
The first real game was never just going to be a game. Even before it started, Bobby could feel that. There are certain moments in life where everything you have done up until that point starts to press in on you all at once. Not in a way that overwhelms you, but in a way that reminds you exactly where you are. That’s what this felt like. When Bobby stepped into the arena at North Carolina, it didn’t feel like a normal walk. It felt like a transition. Like he was stepping out

Kay Felder
Apr 276 min read


PG1: The Freshman - Earn Everything
Bobby Joe Hill thought he was ready for college basketball. He had done everything you’re supposed to do before getting here. He stayed late after practice back home, got shots up when nobody was watching, and carried his high school team in moments that mattered. Coaches trusted him, teammates followed him, and the game made sense when it was in his hands. They called him PG1. Not because it sounded good, but because it meant something. It meant he was the head of everything

Kay Felder
Apr 2010 min read


I CHOOSE YOU PART IV: The Moment Before Forever
Proposals don’t begin the day a man buys a ring. They start long before that. Before entering the jewelry store. Before planning. Before the question ever reaches his lips. They begin in decisions no one sees. In moments that seem insignificant at the time—but ultimately shape everything. Because true love doesn’t arrive. It accumulates. It accumulates in small choices. In difficult conversations. In staying when leaving would be easier. In choosing someone when his pride adv

Kay Felder
Apr 138 min read


I CHOOSE YOU PART III: The Question Before the Question
Serious didn’t arrive loudly. It didn’t announce itself with fireworks or declarations. It came the way real things do—slow, intentional, undeniable. It showed up in the way his decisions started changing before he ever said anything out loud. In the way he stopped entertaining distractions without needing to explain why. In the way he started imagining her in places he used to picture himself alone. He didn’t even notice it at first. It wasn’t like he woke up and said, I’m a

Kay Felder
Mar 309 min read


The Journey of Love: Choosing Each Other Every Day
The Weight of Goodbyes Leaving always felt harder than arriving. Arriving was hopeful. It carried excitement, curiosity, and possibility. But leaving? Leaving asks you to confront what you’re taking with you—and what you might lose when the scenery changes. The cabin disappeared slowly in the rearview mirror, swallowed by trees like it had never existed at all. The gravel road gave way to pavement. The woods thinned. Cell service returned in weak bars. The Silence After Intim

Kay Felder
Mar 166 min read


I CHOOSE YOU PART I: Cabins on the Lake
It started like most good things in life start—by accident. Not a grand plan. Not a calendar reminder. Not some “we should do this one day” promise that dies in the group chat. Just a random day. He had been moving through the week like he was wearing a heavy jacket nobody else could see. Work, errands, life—same loop, different dates. The kind of rhythm that makes you forget you’re alive until something small breaks the pattern. A song. A smell. A message. She hit him first.

Kay Felder
Mar 912 min read


The Torch They Carried
History doesn’t always arrive in textbooks. Sometimes it arrives in sneakers squeaking across hardwood. Sometimes in spikes digging into a track. Sometimes in a swing of a bat that echoes across generations. Sometimes in the roar of a football stadium under bright Friday night lights. Black history in sports isn’t just about games won. It’s about doors opened. It’s about courage in moments when the whole world was watching. And every generation carried the torch a little furt

Kay Felder
Mar 24 min read


THE MAN I WOULDN’T LISTEN TO Part III – No More Tomorrows
The night everything changed didn’t feel important. No music. No slow motion. No moment where the world paused to ask if I was sure. Just a series of choices stacked on top of years of choices. A conversation that turned into tension. Tension that turned into anger. Anger that turned into something I could never take back. People like to believe that life-altering moments announce themselves. That they come with warning signs and dramatic build-ups. They don’t. They arrive qu

Kay Felder
Feb 238 min read


Celebrating Black Women: The Architects of History and Future
Black history is incomplete without Black women. Before movements had microphones, before laws were rewritten, before the world learned their names— They were already working. Already building. Already believing. The Courage of Harriet Tubman Think about Harriet Tubman . She didn’t just dream about freedom. She walked back into danger for it. Again. And again. And again. That’s courage. Not loud. Not flashy. But relentless. The Strength of Rosa Parks Think abo

Kay Felder
Feb 164 min read


THE MAN I WOULDN’T LISTEN TO Part II – The Pattern
I stopped being surprised when I saw him. The first time, I thought he was a hallucination. The second time, I thought he was my conscience trying to scare me straight. By the third, I understood something colder: He wasn’t visiting me. He was following me. Every time the door closed behind me, every time the world shrank back down to concrete and steel, he was already there. Same bench. Same folded hands. Same eyes that looked like they had watched too much of my life go wro

Kay Felder
Feb 97 min read



Kay Felder
Feb 20 min read


THE MAN I WOULDN’T LISTEN TO -PART I
The First Cell I met the man I was going to become in a jail cell. Not in a dream. Not in a mirror. Not in some moment of imagination when your mind starts playing tricks on you because the lights never go off and the air never feels fresh. I met him sitting on the cold steel bench across from me, hands folded like he’d been waiting on me all along. “You don’t know me yet,” he said, voice calm in a place where nothing else ever was. “But I know every mistake you’re about to m

Kay Felder
Jan 268 min read


The Power of a Good Friend
(Children’s Poem) A good friend shows up when the world feels loud, When you’re unsure, or feeling left out of the crowd. They stand beside you when the days aren’t bright, And remind you that you matter, that you’ll be alright. A good friend listens when you need to talk, Claps for your wins, lifts you up when you fall. They don’t need to be perfect—they just need to care, Every laugh, every moment… they choose to be there. A good friend stays when the journey gets tough, Th

Kay Felder
Jan 191 min read
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