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THE VERDICT
Book One: Williams v. The State Part I — The Man Before the Case At exactly 6:03 every morning, before the courthouse lights flickered on and before downtown Columbus filled with lawyers wearing thousand-dollar suits, a black Ford F-250 rumbled down High Street. It wasn’t polished. It wasn’t flashy. It had scratches along the tailgate, dried mud around the wheel wells, and a fishing rod tucked neatly inside the truck bed. People looked at it and assumed it belonged to a contr

Kay Felder
Aug 421 min read


I AM MUSIC
People ask me all the time what kind of music I listen to. I never know how to answer. Because the real answer is… Everything. Some people treat music like background noise. They throw on a playlist while they’re cleaning the house or driving somewhere and never really hear it. I’ve never been able to do that. Music doesn’t just play. It speaks. It’s poetry wearing a melody. It’s a painting that doesn’t use paint. It’s emotion you can hear. A four-minute song can take you bac

Kay Felder
Jul 274 min read


Where Was You At?
You know what’s funny about success? Most people think the hardest part is getting there. They imagine the sleepless nights, the sacrifices, the setbacks, the failures, and they assume that’s the mountain everyone struggles to climb. But after watching people chase dreams, lose dreams, rebuild dreams, and finally accomplish dreams, I’ve realized the hardest part isn’t the work itself. The hardest part is learning who stays around while you’re doing it. Everybody loves the spo

Kay Felder
Jul 208 min read


NO HONOR AMONG US Part II: A-B
Part II-A: The Cage Lena’s fingers flew across the keyboard inside the SUV. Briggs never looked away from the building. “I found Naomi King,” she said. Briggs turned. “Where?” Lena stared at the screen. “She aged out of foster care at eighteen. Changed her name two years later. No social media. No driver’s license for almost three years. Then she resurfaced.” “As who?” Lena swallowed. “Denise Holloway.” Briggs slowly looked back toward the building. “The operations manager.”

Kay Felder
Jul 69 min read


NO HONOR AMONG USPart I: The Table
Everybody wants to believe they have a code. Criminals especially. They sit in dark rooms, count dirty money, shake hands they don’t mean, and convince themselves they’re different from the next man because they got rules. Don’t touch family. Don’t talk to police. Don’t steal from the crew. Don’t lie unless you have to. Don’t kill unless there’s no other way. They call it honor. But honor is easy when the money is small. Honor is easy when everybody eats. Honor is easy when n

Kay Felder
Jun 2916 min read


POISON IVY — PART III: UNDER THE SKIN
The strange thing about warning signs is that they’re usually visible long before we decide to acknowledge them. By then, it was obvious. We were talking every day again. Seeing each other regularly. Acting like a couple. Avoiding the conversation that would force us to admit it. Somewhere along the way, the gray area disappeared. Neither of us announced it. Neither of us defined it. But we both knew. We were back. Maybe not officially. But emotionally. And emotions tend to m

Kay Felder
Jun 225 min read


POISON IVY PART II: THE ITCH
I told myself I wasn’t going to overthink it. It was just a message. Three words. “Hope you’re okay.” That’s all. Nothing romantic. Nothing emotional. Nothing that should’ve had the power to affect me the way it did. But it did. Because sometimes it’s not the message. It’s who sent it. I responded. Simple. Casual. Just enough to be polite. At least that’s what I told myself. The conversation lasted ten minutes. Then twenty. Then an hour. Before I knew it, we were talking the

Kay Felder
Jun 157 min read


POISON IVY PART I: JUST CAN'T LET GO
I used to think heartbreak came from losing someone. Getting cheated on. Getting lied to. Getting betrayed. The older I got, the more I realized those situations weren’t always the hardest ones to recover from. Sometimes the hardest person to let go of is the one who never really did anything wrong. The one who treated you well. The one who cared about you. The one who wanted the best for you. The one you genuinely loved. The problem is that love doesn’t automatically mean tw

Kay Felder
Jun 85 min read


TRUE COLORS
Sometimes people don’t show you who they are when things are going bad. They show you who they are when things are going good. That’s the part nobody talks about. People always say money changes people. Success changes people. Fame changes people. Maybe. But sometimes money doesn’t change people at all. Sometimes it simply reveals them. Sometimes all success does is turn the lights on. And when the lights come on, everybody’s true colors become impossible to ignore. The first

Kay Felder
Jun 34 min read


To The Youth
TO THE YOUTH There is something powerful about being young. Not because you have everything figured out. Not because life is easy. Not because the world suddenly understands you. But because you still have time to become whoever you decide to be. That is the part people forget to tell you. The world will spend so much time trying to tell you who you are before you even get the chance to discover it for yourself. Some people will tell you to dream smaller. Some people will lau

Kay Felder
May 286 min read


PG1 - The Sophomore - Part II: The Leap
The game slowed down for Bobby, but his life did not. If anything, everything around him started moving faster. Practices felt faster. Decisions came faster. Expectations grew faster. Recognition spread faster. For the first time since arriving at PG University, people outside of campus were beginning to notice what was happening. At first, the attention came quietly. It lived in conversations between assistant coaches before games. It showed up in social media clips with cap

Kay Felder
May 189 min read


A MOTHER’S TOUCH
When I think about mothers… I don’t think about perfection. I think about moments. Little moments that somehow turned into the biggest memories of our lives. I think about waking up on a Saturday morning hearing music playing through the house before my eyes even opened. One of those old songs moms always know every single word to. The smell of breakfast floating through the hallway. Sunlight peeking through the curtains. The sound of dishes moving around in the kitchen. And

Kay Felder
May 125 min read


PG1: The Sophomore — Something More
The game did not slow down. Bobby did. But that did not happen overnight, and it definitely did not happen by accident. It came from frustration that never really left him. It came from moments during his freshman year where he walked off the court knowing he had more to give but did not always know how to give it. It came from possessions where he made the right read just a second too late, or where he saw something open but hesitated long enough for it to disappear. He coul

Kay Felder
May 47 min read


PG1: The Freshman — Part II: When It Counts
The first real game was never just going to be a game. Even before it started, Bobby could feel that. There are certain moments in life where everything you have done up until that point starts to press in on you all at once. Not in a way that overwhelms you, but in a way that reminds you exactly where you are. That’s what this felt like. When Bobby stepped into the arena at North Carolina, it didn’t feel like a normal walk. It felt like a transition. Like he was stepping out

Kay Felder
Apr 276 min read


PG1: The Freshman - Earn Everything
Bobby Joe Hill thought he was ready for college basketball. He had done everything you’re supposed to do before getting here. He stayed late after practice back home, got shots up when nobody was watching, and carried his high school team in moments that mattered. Coaches trusted him, teammates followed him, and the game made sense when it was in his hands. They called him PG1. Not because it sounded good, but because it meant something. It meant he was the head of everything

Kay Felder
Apr 2010 min read


I CHOOSE YOU PART IV: The Moment Before Forever
Proposals don’t begin the day a man buys a ring. They start long before that. Before entering the jewelry store. Before planning. Before the question ever reaches his lips. They begin in decisions no one sees. In moments that seem insignificant at the time—but ultimately shape everything. Because true love doesn’t arrive. It accumulates. It accumulates in small choices. In difficult conversations. In staying when leaving would be easier. In choosing someone when his pride adv

Kay Felder
Apr 138 min read


I CHOOSE YOU PART III: The Question Before the Question
Serious didn’t arrive loudly. It didn’t announce itself with fireworks or declarations. It came the way real things do—slow, intentional, undeniable. It showed up in the way his decisions started changing before he ever said anything out loud. In the way he stopped entertaining distractions without needing to explain why. In the way he started imagining her in places he used to picture himself alone. He didn’t even notice it at first. It wasn’t like he woke up and said, I’m a

Kay Felder
Mar 309 min read


The Journey of Love: Choosing Each Other Every Day
The Weight of Goodbyes Leaving always felt harder than arriving. Arriving was hopeful. It carried excitement, curiosity, and possibility. But leaving? Leaving asks you to confront what you’re taking with you—and what you might lose when the scenery changes. The cabin disappeared slowly in the rearview mirror, swallowed by trees like it had never existed at all. The gravel road gave way to pavement. The woods thinned. Cell service returned in weak bars. The Silence After Intim

Kay Felder
Mar 166 min read


I CHOOSE YOU PART I: Cabins on the Lake
It started like most good things in life start—by accident. Not a grand plan. Not a calendar reminder. Not some “we should do this one day” promise that dies in the group chat. Just a random day. He had been moving through the week like he was wearing a heavy jacket nobody else could see. Work, errands, life—same loop, different dates. The kind of rhythm that makes you forget you’re alive until something small breaks the pattern. A song. A smell. A message. She hit him first.

Kay Felder
Mar 912 min read


The Torch They Carried
History doesn’t always arrive in textbooks. Sometimes it arrives in sneakers squeaking across hardwood. Sometimes in spikes digging into a track. Sometimes in a swing of a bat that echoes across generations. Sometimes in the roar of a football stadium under bright Friday night lights. Black history in sports isn’t just about games won. It’s about doors opened. It’s about courage in moments when the whole world was watching. And every generation carried the torch a little furt

Kay Felder
Mar 24 min read
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